I always knew I was going to be a mom. ALWAYS. I was the babysitter, the caretaker… I would hold the babies, feed them and even change the diapers. I was one of those weird ones who liked the younger kids rather than trying to hang with the older kids. I think my family thought I was weird.
My mom had 5 children… so I just knew I was going to have 5 children. Fast- forward to now: I still dream about being a mom of 5… but I now know what that entails. My husband doesn’t like the idea of 5 but maybe I can still talk him into it. ~insert his rolling eyes here~. Seriously, I think 3 might be our limit, even though I joke about continuing to try if number 3 isn’t a girl.
I was so happy when I got pregnant with Hayden. I had been waiting for a while and couldn’t believe that it took so long in the first place. About a year and a half is how long it took. It didn’t matter anymore once I was pregnant. It was an extremely stormy day when I gave birth to Hayden… which is why I think he was such a calm baby. So by the time he was 1, I wanted another one. But with my husband in school, we decided to wait a little while longer so I wasn’t overwhelmed. Especially since I’d be alone so often.
So when Hayden was 18 months, we started trying again. I hoped it wouldn’t take us as long to get pregnant again. Of course it did! I got pregnant the month of Hayden’s 3rd birthday. There has got to be some reason why it takes us so long but I try not to dwell on it. The reason I think that 3 is our limit is what happened after I got pregnant the second time.
My pregnancy wasn’t as easy as the first one. I was 3 years older and weighed a little bit more. I had dizzy spells which resulted in me fainting at the zoo. Our year pass we bought went to waste because I couldn’t walk around the zoo. I also HAD to drink lots of water or else I would feel sick. After I had Noah, I was stressed all the time with what it took to take care of 2 children at once. I now have it down and probably only do because Hayden is so much older. This is why I’m pretty sure that 3 kids is our limit. While I love kids (especially my own), I don’t think that I would be able to handle 4 kids by myself… even if I was a stay at home mom.
Ashley is a busy mom of two boys and a resident contributor for Taking Time for Mommy – Online Magazine for Mom. She is also the owner of and the little ones too. You can also find her on Twitter and Facebook.